Monday, June 30, 2008

By Charlotte Grimshawe
Metro, June 2008

City of Stories
Under the puddles in Auckland Two

One night, after a party, I was given a lift. In the car were Hamish Keith and two other people. Someone said to me, ‘In your story The Body, you used the phrase, ‘intellectual slum.’ But your father has already used it in one of his novels.’
There was a silence. Was this an accusation of plagiarism? It would have to be dealt with. Rolling round in the back seat I considered my response. Finally I came out with this: ‘Yeah, I stole it.’
Hamish began to say something sympathetic, also subtle. ‘In art, we build on what has gone before. It’s not so much stealing as…’
We listened. He was his usual brilliant self. He was right, but there was something more to explain. It had been a long night; clearly I was over-tired. ‘I stole it,’ I shot from the back. I nearly added, ‘Are we there yet?’

In families there’s a private language. There are in-jokes, built up over decades, that no outsider can know. There are stock phrases. ‘Intellectual slum’ was always a favourite of mine. My father once used it to describe the church. I inherited the phrase; it was part of the family silver. I used it with a sense of entitlement. But only in a particular place; only where it seemed to fit. In my story, The Body, it’s uttered by a father figure. An artist, the parent of three adult children. You could almost say he resembles…
My father: teller of stories. When I was a child, he and I had imaginary games. In London, we had a fantasy: under the puddles there was a second city. Extraordinary things could happen, in London Two. These days, when I walk through Auckland, I don’t see stories in the pavement. I see people I’ve changed into fiction. I see a person and what I’ve made of him; they are entirely different beings. In adulthood I have my own double world: my Auckland and my Auckland Two.

One day I saw someone I’d met in strange circumstances, a long time ago. I’d written a story, using detail of our encounter, and it had been published. I hadn’t seen him for a long time. He gave me a glare. He looked dark, disdainful. I went on my way. He must have read the story, I thought. He must be angry about that.
I did something impulsive. I sent him an email. I wanted to cancel out that terrible look. Dear X, I said. I wrote a story, and used some details from that day. But fiction is fiction. Please don’t take offence. You may have seen things you recognised, but they were nothing to do with you.
X sent me a polite message. He thanked me for my explanation. He hadn’t read my story. His look had not been foul. Write anything you like, he said. It wouldn’t bother him.
That was that. No further communication was possible. I did the only thing I could, in the circumstances. I put the exchange into fiction.

In the story, a woman writes a story. It contains details of a real incident: ‘the disaster with Mr Jones.’ After it’s published the writer (a solipsistic failure) is coldly snubbed by Mr. Jones. She sends him a message, trying to put things right. But ‘putting things right’ is always a fantasy. It’s never going to work. She only creates more uncertainty, more of a tangle – her second disaster with Mr. Jones.
I made this writer character an idiot, and punished her with self-revelation. I dealt with her firmly and pitilessly. I wrote her into the ground, and moved on.

But two weeks later, I ran into someone. Uninvited, out of the blue, he told me this: he had known X for years. He was an old friend. Why, just the other day he’d been talking to X. Did I know him? (Oh, vaguely.) Then he told me a series of anecdotes – innocuous, everyday ones – that were all about X’s life. I listened, in neutral silence. Startling. Strange. As if a door had been thrown open and there X was. His life of worthy service. His charitable ways. He sounds like a saint, I murmured. But the details got me thinking. I wrote another story. I couldn’t help it. I didn’t stop there. It isn’t X in these stories. I don’t know X. It’s the made-up one. It’s the X who was invented a long time ago, when he stepped into Auckland Two.

This is what it’s like with writing. You sit at home, at your desk in the suburbs, playing with data. And then you go out, into the city. Everywhere you look there are stories. The ones already told and the ones about to happen, those that have grown from the ones before.
Time passed. I saw the mayor out walking, John Key at the supermarket, Helen Clark at a book party. I saw Joe Karam beside a sculpture on Gladstone Rd. I saw David Bain at Iguacu, Clint Rickards at the Warehouse, John Campbell looking pensive in a mall. These people: stories swarm around them like bees. They are the subject of everyone’s make-believe. We see them, recognise them, we make up who they are. Real people, flesh and blood, shadowed by fictional selves.

Charlotte Grimshaw’s column appears each month in Metro magazine. This column, from the June 2008 issue, is reproduced with the magazine’s permission.


Thanks to both Charlotte Grimshaw and Metro for permission to reproduce this story. Charlotte Grimshaw's latest work of fiction, OPPORTUNITY, Random House $27.99, is shortlisted for the Montana New Zealand Book Awards.


Anonymous said...

On behalf of all of those who do not see Metro, and I suspect that is pretty much everyone outside of Auckland, may I express my warm thanks to The Bookman for taking the trouble in getting permission to publish the fascinating piece by Charlotte Grimshaw. As a would-be author I was most interested in her words. She is an inspiration to me.

Anonymous said...

Actually I live in Wellington and I do read Metro but somehow I missed the piece by Charlotte Grimshaw. How interesting it must have been for her growing up in that family with her Dad being arguably NZ's most foremost man of letters.
And can I take this chance to express my thanks to you for all the trouble you go to accumulating all this stuff from around the world of books. With the huge proliferation in blogs I have had to exercise more discipline on the amount of time I give to them and so have had a pretty severe cull of those I visit regularly. Rest assured though Bookman Beattie yours will always be on my shortlist. It's terrific.

Anonymous said...

Gosh she can write well. I have just finished her collection that is shortlisted for the Montana Prize, great stories. Has a work of short stories ever won this prize before? She must be in with a chance, even more so this year as she only has three competitors!

Beattie's Book Blog said...

The Bookman does not recall a work of short fiction ever winning the Montana NZ Book Awards, or its predecessors The Montana Book Awards and the NZ Book Awards.
Can someone else throw any light on this subject?