For today I am a boy
Kim Fu
Vintage Australia
RRP $39.99
This novel arrived, accompanied by a media release saying '
early reviews from around the world are unanimous: For Today I Am a Boy is a masterpiece... drawing comparisons from
Jeffrey Eugenides' 'Middlesex' and the work of Amy Tan.' 'Middlesex' is one of my all-time favourite
'coming of age' novels, so this left Kim Fu with quite a lot to live up to.
Kim Fu
is a first-time novelist but has published poetry, essays and long-form
journalism. She is a Seattle-based
writer and editor. The cover of this
novel is most alluring. It is an
androgynous Asian face, divided in two, the one side demurely male and the
other a delicately feminine face overlaid with colourful Chinese artwork.
Peter Huang
is the only son of Canadian Chinese immigrants from Fort Michael, Ontario. Peter's father, speaks Cantonese for the
very last time when his son is born and he names him Juan Chaun (meaning Powerful King). This is the legacy that Peter who believes
himself to be a girl, struggles to live up to. Peter is the third child in a
family of four. The other three are his
sisters, Adele, Helen and Bonnie.
In the
prologue we meet Peter's mother as she gives birth, one by one to her four
children. It is a tightly written introduction to the family, over four
pages. I was gripped by the opening
scene as Peter's mother imagines herself a body in the butcher's shop and
wonders about the cooking of human ears 'She could stew them, char them in a
skillet, watch her skin blister and pop.' For some reason, I was reminded of
the opening scene in Carol Shields 'The Stone Diaries'. I felt immediately drawn right into the heart
of the Huang family.
The
novel moves then to the first person narrative by Peter as he negotiates being
in a boy's body while wishing to be and identifying within as a girl. It begins with his experiences in the school
playground with the bullies and his relationship with his conservative Chinese
father, who perhaps suspects that Peter is struggling to live up to the moniker
of Powerful King.
Fu's
prose is very assured for a first-time novelist. And too, at times I felt this very aspect of
the writing worked against Peter and his
journey. Instead of a sustained
narrative, at times it felt like very beautifully crafted episodes and I wanted
just a little more than this very tight, clever prose sometimes offered
me. I wanted more time to digest what
was happening to Peter. Having said
that, I couldn't help but admire and be impressed by the writing.
We don't stay on Peter's journey, but digress
frequently into the lives of his sisters - and here, I quibble (although not
loudly), because the first person narrative slips somehow into the eye of
God. It confused me and it also
frustrated the thread of the story.
Here, the comparisons to Amy Tan seem relevant, with the daughters'
response to their conservative upbringing and in particular the relationship
with their mother.
Peter
leaves school and gets work as a kitchen hand . Here in the, at times brutal
hierarchy of the kitchen Peter encounters versions of masculinity other than
the model his father offers. Too, the
details of a commercial kitchen, the conversations and the goings on, are
sharp, authentic and feel very real. He
makes tentative steps towards exploring his sexuality including a very sad and
abusive relationship with an older woman.
It took
until nearly the end of the novel for my heart to really engage with Peter -
and I wondered if this was intended by the author - that we remain just a bit
at a distance from Peter as he grows towards understanding and acceptance of
his true self. My heart was first really
moved after Peter's father has died and his mother tries to catch a bus from
Canada down into the USA without a return ticket. Prior to this, she has never travelled or
made her own decisions. This moment
when the mother encounters the border guards, is when my heart was finally
really engaged. Prior to this, I was absolutely engaged as a
reader, but wanting a closer relationship with the characters.
And
then, nearer to the end, as Peter meets a new model of masculinity, one that he
can barely believe, and we see him taking tentative steps to accepting his own
true identity as a girl, it is then and only then, that I felt the emotional
response that I had expected (wanted) to feel earlier on. I loved when Peter finally had the courage to
go out in public as a girl.
There
is no doubt about the precocious writing talent of Kim Fu and this is definitely
an excellent debut, but it didn't quite match for me the stunning coming of age
story of 'Middlesex' - there just wasn't quite enough tenderness. Also, it felt that Peter's sisters' lives
were just a distraction, but in a different and longer novel, this could have
been a fascinating saga of immigrant children.
But mostly, I wanted to know more about Peter and to stay closer to him
on his journey.
About the reviewer:
Maggie Rainey-Smith is a Wellington writer and regular reviewer on Beattie's Book Blog. http://acurioushalfhour.wordpress.com
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