'I never wanted to believe in the gender thing – I thought women could write anything – but now I think there's a conspiracy of small books'
I read her short story debut, The Safety of Objects in 1990. I was 30, excited about finding contemporary women writers, eager to build the personal private library I needed – as a woman, as a reader and as a writer. Men have been writing about women for ever. Here was a woman writing dangerously, provocatively, about boys and men, and using the male persona. That was intriguing.
JW: Why do you write from the male perspective nearly all the time?
AM: That is my imagination. It's the place I go. I am comfortable there so I can be uncomfortable there. I find it harder, self-consciously so, to write a female narrator.
JW: How do men feel about what you do?
AM: It's interesting – I think I have a lot of male readers (I have no way to know for sure but I like to think I do). Often the letters I get are from men, and they come to the readings. I have male students in my classes. [She teaches at Princeton.] Not the soft romantic types – the geeky math types.
JW: Is it anything to do with you wanting to get away from the stereotype of women's topics, women's books? Like JK Rowling, you use your initials – she was told to do it otherwise boys wouldn't read her.'
AM: I just don't think I can be called Amy. Do I look like an Amy? Do I write like an Amy? If I were called Jonathan, it would be easier – given the kind of things I write. We judge the content of what men and women write very differently. A lot of women get mad at me because of the violence. Maybe they never turn on the TV.
I met AM Homes just a few years ago in New York City where she lives with her young daughter Juliet and their dog Lulu. I have had good times with the kid and the dog, and long talks about everything with AM. We are both adopted, and that – as AM puts it – is a cellular unsettling that we share.
Her memoir, The Mistress's Daughter, is the story of her biological parents coming to find her. When I was writing Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? – my own adoption story about going to find my mother – AM warned me that cells have a memory. She said: "You are disturbing the deepest thing in you. It's like a raid on your DNA."
The frightening, unquantifiable, unnameable feelings are a writer's territory, but living them in your own body is like Dr Jekyll drinking the powder and risking becoming Hyde. Rage, fury, violence, powerlessness, are where AM goes in her fiction – The End of Alice is the story of a paedophile. Yet in The Mistress's Daughter, the spotlight of understanding is turned on herself. She is ruthlessly clear about her own feelings, including, especially, how unclear feelings are.
JW: Do you remember – you were writing your new book, May We Be Forgiven …
AM: I was writing it for seven years …
JW: I know. There is a line in it Harry says about wanting to be "a better version of myself". I always believed that's what fiction and poetry could do.
Full piece at The Guardian